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September 11, 2007
You will be entertained at the very least and enlightenment is an option.
http://advancedmeditation.com/cmd.php?Clk=2095310
Thursday, 9/13, there is a teleconference call where you can learn more about this. There will be sample meditations and a chance at a free gift worth $400.
http://advancedmeditation.com/cmd.php?Clk=2095310
Trust me. You want to try this. The IAM Meditations are the product of the fertile mind of Steven Sashen who is also responsible for much of the Shampoo Method we talk about here every day.
It’s completely safe. I’d trust this guy with my life.
This feeling, this is what we have all been looking for our whole lives. It’s like coming home.
Love, Ann
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August 4, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1ZVV09vTU8
How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I’m filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots (!)
How about that ever elusive kudo
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down
How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping
Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence
yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh
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April 18, 2007
I’m trying to eat only what I want and only what tastes good, but nothing is tasting good.
Tamari almonds have a slightly rancid taste. My Braeburn apple is mealy. The Earl Grey tea – the maple syrup in it, really – has that bitter sugar aftertaste and the caffeine will send me to the bathroom all day.
None of that is what I want, but the rich purple tea cup is delicious to look at and the warmth on my hands is pulling me inward. I cleared papers off the desk to put it where I could glance at it once in a while.
This has been going on for a while.
I just don’t know what to eat.
Not surprising. For lots of reasons.
It’s parallel to why I’m on my 32nd day of complete sexual abstinence (self and other).
Sex didn’t feel good.
It felt tense and worried, sometimes hurried.
That’s why I’m abstaining from self-pleasuring as well as sex with others. I got bored with what was often just a little relief that only left me very, very hungry.
It’s been a joke for a while:
What does Ann want after you give her orgasms? More orgasms.
Sure, I know how to relax and have some really blissful far-out mind-blowing see-God orgasms.
But I wasn’t taking the time or paying the attention to doing that. Even wanting that was stressful.
So if I don’t know what I want, I’ll just want nothing for a while.
I get hungry or I get horny.
I relax the wanting contraction or repair an opposite or inquire about my thinking. I can notice whether I’m eating something or thinking about sex and orgasms with myself or someone else because I want Safety, Control or Approval.
Maybe I eat something and it doesn’t taste good. Or maybe it does. Once in a while it does.
It’s just kind of a process. The Buddhists might call it mindfulness.
Steven tells a story, I think it’s in the All That Is IAM Meditation, about a time when he was at a conference eating cafeteria food. They had an all-you-can-eat thing set up. He was just blissing out on how good everything tasted.
Then he heard someone complaining about how bad the food was. He checked his food again. It was pretty bad, actually.
Rather than buying into that “tastes bad” story, he says he chose to just stick with his story about how good everything was.
Hmm, now there’s an idea.
On the other hand, I could definitely stand to drop a few pounds. And waiting for a suitable mate is definitely on my agenda.
Maybe I’ll just stick with the story about how, so far, nothing tastes good. Maybe that contrast will help me notice when it does taste good?
I don’t know, but I’m going to play with this some more.
Do you have any suggestions?
Love, Ann
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April 11, 2007
“Legalized abortion appears to account for as much as 50 percent of the recent drop in crime.”
http://www.nber.org/papers/w8004
Abortion has been in the news again, according to my friends who follow such things. No one seriously expects us to lose this right to control our bodies and our lives, but I am not taking any chances. I’m going to say something. Here. Now.
I almost never get political about anything. Ask anyone who knows me. I’m all about taking care of what is in front of me, things I can actually do something about, and contributing by example. But when Julie told me about this at the Inspirational Reading Group on Saturday I decided to look it up.
Here is the Abstract of the study:
NBER Working Paper No. 8004*
Issued in November 2000
NBER Program(s): CH LE PE
—- Abstract —–
We offer evidence that legalized abortion has contributed significantly to recent crime reductions. Crime began to fall roughly 18 years after abortion legalization. The 5 states that allowed abortion in 1970 experienced declines earlier than the rest of the nation, which legalized in 1973 with Roe v. Wade. States with high abortion rates in the 1970s and 1980s experienced greater crime reductions in the 1990s. In high abortion states, only arrests of those born after abortion legalization fall relative to low abortion states. Legalized abortion appears to account for as much as 50 percent of the recent drop in crime.
*Published: Donohue, John J., III and Steven D. Levitt. “The Impact Of Legalized Abortion On Crime,” Quarterly Journal of Economics, 2001, v116(2,May), 379-420.
That’s huge.
I was a part of that.
I have had 2 abortions and 2 miscarriages in my life.
Here is something the American Catholics have to say about it:
http://www.americancatholic.org/messenger/jan2000/Editorial.asp
I fully expect flames for this post. I will publish all reasonable commentary that is not rude or disrespectful whether or not you agree with me, as usual.
My support of abortion, since 1973 when I was old enough to care or think about such things, the same year I chose to have sex for the first time, had nothing to do with reducing the crime rate. My decision is about choice and a woman’s right to make choices about her life and her body.
I am thrilled that it has contributed to a reduced crime rate.
Your comments may give me thoughts to question or investigate, tensions to relax, paradoxes to re-pair, etc. but as Steven once told me, “Some things are just true.”
“Legalized abortion appears to account for as much as 50 percent of the recent drop in crime.”
(see study link above)
Love, Ann
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